2012: so far, you suck.

by Bronnie on January 8, 2012

It’s very hard to believe that I left 2011 on such a happy note. Having fallen in love with an amazing man and having him return the same affection. We had plans, ideas and so many fun thoughts in mind for the year ahead that I was excited beyond belief.

However by day six of this year it all crumbled and fell. We both still completely want each other and feel emotionally crippled by the situation. Basically he was made to choose, by a third party. A choice he really only had one possible answer to. It didn’t include me.

I have cried so much over the past couple of days – I never thought it possible. I’ve never had my heart broken like this – another thing I never thought possible. I’m heading back to work tomorrow for the start of a new year. I have never felt this deflated or emotionally exhausted after a Christmas break like I am right now. I keep telling myself that work will keep me busy. Forget him. You deserve so much better than this. If only it were so easy to switch off feelings and block someone from your head and your heart.

I know I will get over him in time, it will just take longer than normal – as knowing we still want to be together is tearing me apart.

Good God 2012, please improve. You can’t get much worse.

5 comments

that really fucking sucks! why did someone else have to make him choose? what business is your relationship to anyone else? argh! I am really sorry x

by Jordie on January 8, 2012 at 9:35 pm. Reply #

I am SO sorry to hear this
I don’t know the full story but my heart goes out to you, gorgeous girl.
Thinking of you and hope that your 2012 gets better xoxo

by Kez on January 9, 2012 at 2:22 am. Reply #